Feelings

I just have to say that having your feelings hurt sucks. Most people don’t even realize that they have done it nor did they really mean to. I know that mine were not hurt intentionally. I know that it is silly that I am even concerned with it. I know that I should let it go, should not give it a second thought, but yet here I am worrying over it, not letting it go, still mopping that my feelings were hurt in such a simple way. It bothers me more than I care to admit that I get paranoid about relationships, that I sometimes feel like I care more about people than they do me. I have always thought of myself as being tough skinned and then something like this happens and I get knocked down a few pegs. I have got to learn to not get so attached, to set myself apart more. I need to stop trying to be someone I am not nor will ever be to certain people. To stop pushing myself and a relationship on them that they do not care to have. They do not see our friendship the same way I do. They are not on the same level I am with it. No matter what, they will not think of me in the same way I think of them. I just need to face facts that things are the way they are and there is nothing I can do about it. I have to come to the realization that although I consider some people very important the feeling is not mutual. I am not saying that they don’t care about me or consider me a friend, they just do not see our friendship the same way I do, do not see it as important as I do. I will not be doing this again. Once again I have learned my lesson the hard way.