How do you fix something that is broken when you are the only on that knows it’s broke? Do you really want to just be done with it, walk away, throw up your hands, and leave things as they are? Or do you try your damndest to change it, make things better, and spend all of your emotions on making it the same as it once was? Cross roads come in everyone’s lives and a path must be chosen, but which one is right? Life changes and not everyone goes through those changes with you. Some are just not meant to make it to the end with you, but how do you know who? How can you make the situation any different when you seem to be the only one who knows or cares that there is a problem to begin with. You begin to look around at what has come to be life with out them and it doesn’t seem so bad, you have made it this long without. Then you get hit with a small something that makes you start to question where you are with it, you start to question your feelings on it all over again, because when you first made the rash decision to be done with it, you knew it was out of hurt and disappointment. You know that you really didn’t give it all the thought it needed; you were just hurt and upset. In all honesty you were content with things, until that small little something pops up and makes you look harder at the situation. You know that what ever decision is made that things will never go back to the way they once were. That you will never truly find that common ground again, have the relationship you once held so dear. Honesty again shows you that you knew this already, you just didn’t want to believe it. You knew that it was to good to be true, that no one can truly be that close to you or care that much. You knew pretty much from the get go that you cared more, put more heart into it, so why be hurt, why be disappointed now? You seen the signs coming, they were always there, just covered so well that you turned a blind eye to them. You knew that it would happen, that it would not stay the same forever. At lest you can count on those under your roof, those are the ones that will make it to the end, they are the ones that love you no matter what and you begin to see that is all you really need now. Yep, you should have known better. At lest you can say that it was yet another of life's lessons well learned.
