I got to thinking tonight as I sat in a quite house that all I have done lately is bitch. If it isn’t one thing or another that I have found to complain about. My last post was just this side of down right hateful and although it was justified, I was still being a bitch. I realized tonight as I went to check on my boys, watching them sleep, listening to their little sighs or mumble how lucky I truly am. It never fails to amaze me that me and the wonderful man I married brought those loves into this world.
Today is my hubby’s 32nd birthday and that got me to thinking just about him. The ins and out of why I love him so much. After ten years I still think my husband is the best thing short of my kids that ever happened to me. I wake up and smile each morning because he is beside me. I still watch him sleep sometimes and it always gives me that settled bone deep happy feeling. I still get butterflies in my stomach when he tells me he loves me. I wait for him to walk in the door everyday and have to walk him to the door every morning, just to get one last second with him and one more kiss. I can clearly recall the first time I meet him. The first time he told me he loved me and when he asked me to marry him. I can still remember his face when I told him we were pregnant and the first time he held each of his sons. I love him more today than I did ten years ago, I didn’t know that was possible. Did you know that every afternoon when he gets home before he does anything else we spend 10-15 minuets alone just talking and catching up about the day. Or that I can not go to sleep at night if our feet are not touching. I still think the way he smokes a cigarette is sexy. When I am upset the first thing he does to make me feel better is put his palm to my check, it is a perfect fit and it never fails to calm me. Did you know that on his phone I have a special ring (song) and when he answers he finishes singing it to me before he even says hello and yes I get giddy at that as well. That I stand by the window and watch his tail lights until I can no longer see them each and every morning as he leaves for work. Did you know that one of my favorite things in the world is cuddling with my hubby? He amazes me daily with his strength and faith. He loves children and would have a house full if he could and I would agree ;) Did you know that he used to play baseball and I still think it is sexy when he gets a chance to play? Yes corny I know, but I find it totally sexy when he is in the field on the tractor or in the garden “farming”. I love that he always wears a baseball cap. Do you know that from day one he has called me “baby” and on the rare occasion he uses my real name I look at him and wonder who he is talking about? He loves to camp and I love sharing a sleeping bag with him. Did you know that there is not one thing he wouldn’t do for me and his kids, literally? I married an amazing man and I am glad I got reminded of that fact! Happy Birthday hubby of mine!!
Friday, April 24, 2009
Bitchs and Birthdays
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Powerful or powerless?!?!?!?
Did y’all know that I am capable of ruining some ones life? That I do not care about others feelings? Have the ability to say where they go and what they do, even where they live? I can also hold small children over their heads and use them against someone. I never knew that I had all this power at the tip of my fingers. Just in case you were wondering I also possess the ability to make grown people look stupid, say hateful things, be afraid, lose their mind, be lonely, act like a 2 year old throwing a tantrum, yell, cuss, and cry. Wow I must really be one powerful bitch. It is actually quite scary. I wonder what else I can do if I try. The possibilities are endless. For those of you wondering, the moment has already passed. I have said my peace, spoke my mind (like y’all thought I wouldn’t) and have since moved on. However I will not be forgetting anytime soon and will against better judgment try to be the bigger person. No, I do not need a shoulder to cry upon, pity, a “bless your heart” or even a friendly reminder of my manners. To be perfectly honest, I am quite capable of those things and more. I am a blunt honest person, who very rarely thinks before I speak. There for when it needs to be said or handled, have no doubt that it will be. I am a momma bear who, yes, will do what ever it takes to see my children are happy, healthy, safe and loved. I will not sacrifice the love of one child for the sake of the other and no it is not ok to make a difference between my children, hence the word…”my” children. Believe it or not BOTH of my children are bright, funny, amazing kids that are too young to understand what you do and why. Nor do they understand drama and why some people find it so great. Just in case some have forgotten the fact that when you are in my home, yard, or car you are subject to my temper, mouth, and sometimes very bitchy behavior. Do not act like an insensitive, selfish idiot and you will not be treated as one. If you have the need to be a drama queen please find someone else who enjoys it more than I do. I do not have the time and energy to entertain your stupidity or mood swings. And no some people’s apologies do not carry much weight with me. It is really not an apology if I have to beat it out of you and it is said with so much disdain it makes your teeth hurt. You might as well keep it to your self because you know what me or my boys don’t need to hear it. Lastly, I believe that what goes around comes around and I promise that one day it will hit you so hard you will only be able to guess as to what just happened.
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009
People never cease to amaze me
I always get a kick out of peoples photos. I know that I am trying to be a photographer so I do have a more critical eye. But it cracks me up to see those pictures taken with their web cam or their cell phone. There is this one chick on my space that actually uses her camera and it doesn’t matter if the pictures come out blurry, to dark to see, or what ever she will still post them. (whatever floats your boat) I know that it shouldn’t matter, that face book is not the grandest thing in the world and you probably shouldn’t base any opinion on the things you see on there. But there are some things you should not take a picture of much less put on face book for the whole world to see. You especially do not take a picture of that and put it out there. I am just shocked, maybe I am just a stick in the mud, but I think that is just vulgar and nasty. I am actually ashamed that she is on my friends list. I graduated with her like 12 years ago and once upon a time considered her a friend, not a close friend but still a friend. I always knew she was a little wild and crazy, but I had no idea she was just…….I do not even know the word. Anyway just thought I would share with all of you. Like you needed to be sick to your stomachs early in the morning!!!
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Monday, April 6, 2009
Its a Monday.....
I had a big long rant typed out and then deleted it, because lets be honest….everyone hates Monday’s.
I can put it simply though, I am now in a pissy mood. I didn’t want to be, I was trying not to be, but it got me and here I am.
Noah is sick A.G.A.I.N.!!! Judging be the sound of his cough and after listening to his chest, sounds like he has walking pneumonia again. (Poor kid).
They have baseball practice today and guess who will NOT be there and guess who will be calling and dealing with the “wonderful” team mom, who found it necessary to put in all caps to let her know if Noah wasn’t going to be there. Why did she put just that part in all caps?
Adam ticked me off because he doesn’t want to deal with the coach or team mom any more than I do and I thought it should be his turn……he didn’t agree. Yeah that conversation went well.
We have a special meal at Noah’s school Thursday along with a party and egg hunt, hope he is up to going. I have a doctors appointment that morning, guess dad will have to handle that one.
The highlight of my week is not coming until Friday when I get to spend some much over due time with my best friend. I am so excited and nervous.
I have 6, yeas I said 6 loads of laundry to do. How many has gotten done so far……..2 and it is already 2:00 p.m. I also have two bathrooms that desperately need cleaning. Boy that sounds like loads of fun.
It’s cold outside, very cold outside. It is going to be cold on Easter and the boys will not get to wear their matching shorts I bought. At lest I wont have to worry about Adam bitching about them matching.
I do not have anything for the boys Eater baskets yet. I guess I will be headed to Wal-Mart one night soon to take care of that. Maybe I can actually go alone and look at what I am buying.
I am looking for a full time job, nough said!
Well those are my bitches for the day. Maybe tonight I can come up with a light and happy post, don’t see it happening today, but there is always hope.
Hope everyone else’s Monday is going better than mine and you all are staying warm.
Posted by Jess at 10:51 AM 4 comments
Friday, April 3, 2009
Our Spring Break Adventure
I am finally getting around to blogging about our trip. I realize that our trip was like two weeks ago, but better late than never. I know that most of you could care less about seeing pictures of my family and what we did and didn’t do on vacation, but my mother would kill me if I didn’t post some. So the rest of you will have to suck it up and deal with it.lol
We headed out about 4 a.m. on Monday morning the 16th. We were headed to
The next day we headed over to the water park (which I do not have pictures of right now, I took those with a waterproof disposal camera) I will have to say that the indoor water park was a lot better than I thought it would be. They had these really nice lounge chairs and bungalows that were close enough you could let your kids go play, keep them in your eye sight and still relax a little. They have a very nice lazy river that circles the entire place. Two different play areas based on age, two great water slides, three different pools of varying depths and three hot tubs two inside and one attached but outside. We stayed there until Noah and Joseph looked like prunes and Adam and I had had all the water fun we could stand. We did manage to do some walking around down town Gatlinburg, had a nice dinner, and then it was back to the hotel so that anal me could go ahead and pack up for the next leg of our journey.
We headed out the next morning for
For me the highlight of this trip was the quaint little town of
Well that pretty much sums up our trip. We all had a great time and it was good to get away as a family. Now, on to some pictures.
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